To Othar (because I’m not sure how to reply to replies, if that’s even a feature on vanilla Tumblr): Yeah, I know, that’s gotta be the biggest motivator I have right now to continue. I’m terrified of becoming one of those perpetual “oh I have these great ideas but I just haven’t gotten around to writing them yet” people.
I’d feel a lot better about this if it was just a matter of powering through a slow or difficult portion of the book. I already reached one of those and responded by jumping to a part where I knew what would happen and (up until now) wanted to see it happen. Does this mean that the entire project has become a slog for me?
So right now I cannot make myself want to continue my NaNoWriMo story. Even skipping ahead to fun magical fight scenes I’ve had in my head for months can’t seem to get me excited.
The first thing that comes to mind is how many artists and authors have said inspiration and motivation are overrated, that if you want to do this professionally (and I do) you have to show up and get your work done every day just like everybody else.
But then I think about how NaNo is one hundred percent arbitrary; you don’t have to produce X words in Y days to be an author, that’s just something someone made up. Meeting or not meeting this goal has no meaning beyond what I put into it.
To be honest one of my biggest recurring issues is that I keep second-guessing myself about whether decisions like this are necessary steps to improve my quality of life or just acts of sloth.